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| - is working very hard towards a big deadline on friday, which has been building up since may 2006. The final report for my research project about the effects smoking during pregnancy.
- is stressful
 - is learning to not stress so much because God's looking after everything, whether I stress or not. He's my Father, i am his child.
- is wishing Med took up less time. alot less, so i can jam more. draw more.
- is wondering how i'm going to find time to digest all the new ideas that came up in my head during PILOT (a chinese churches training event) today
- is (again) wishing Med took up less time and commitment, while i think through those new thoughts from PILOT, and spend more time being in awe of God
- is looking forward to starting PTC (moore college correspondance course) tomorrow with my lovely cell group friends
- is disappointing, because i just looked up where the syd adventist was, and realised its not anywhere in the city (as opposed to 50% of other hospitals), so my hope of meeting up with beautiful grace for lunch during uni break who i miss so so much has just flopped (but ur coming to my 21st. no choice sis!! keep the 25th free atm, invite later)
- vincy: my new background is actually the wallpaper on my computer- i have a widescreen, so i find my wallpapers this site http://interfacelift.com/wallpaper/details.php?id=938
- is wondering how i'm going to get thru this week...its going to be a very tough one.
- as with all challenging situations in life, i can choose God, or i can choose Me. It can either grow me as a christian if i acknowledge the soverignty of his hand in all situations and trust him with all the disappointments/hard times/struggles, or i can blame him for the situation i'm in, blame him for making me busy, blame him for everything.
- This coming week, until Friday, i know i'm emotionally going to yo-yo through alot, physically not get enough sleep, mentally be exhausted, spiritually not well fed. I will wonder why i'm doing this. I will stress out about everything, i do everytime. Yet i will consciously, this time, choose to trust him with everything, to follow him. I know i cannot do it 100%, but I will battle uphill with my human nature. And he will unfailing sustain me through this, all his promises are still all true, as always.
- oh. and as a result of just reflecting and writing this post, i've decided i'm going to try to personally read the bible three times from today til its submitted on friday. Considering the week that just passed was really stressful also, and my QTs were non-existent. i think it will be a very very challenging goal... but i'm going to do it...!!! please pray for my goal. I wrote it on Xanga so u guys can keep me accountable.
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| had a long day today. I really thank GOd for his Word, and... (since i am too lazy to paraphrase, i'll just quote it, coz we memorised it in BSF!)
I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes, first for the Jew then for the gentile. For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written " the righteous will live by faith".
(Romans 1:16-17)
It is only by his power that i am standing here tonight, as a christian. I have been feeling a bit down monday-tuesday, mainly because my walk with God was not happening. And the more i didnt do it, the more i felt guilty. But, by his strength, late at about 9pm tonight, i eventually sat and copied out Romans 1:1-17, to make sure they weren't just empty words i was reading yet again. I tried to make them mean something to me. I think unless I make an effort, QTs can often be "goign thru the motions", just reading empty words. Life worship and service can often be just going thru the motions, singing those words again at church without it going thru our hearts to God. What is it then? simply an expiration of air, simply the wind. meaningless, all is meaningless. I need to be wholehearted in worshipping God.
Its been an emotional rollercoaster ride from about 3pm til now... im drained.
But i am glad things between me and God have taken a step in the right direction.
Thanks to God thru Jesus, for sending a friend to share in my burdens.
Thanks for readin my incoherentness. perhaps i will clarify tomororw on reflection.
d.
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| OCD? (Obessive compulsive disorder)... me??? never!!!
ok! i've done my BSF (yay! i'm proud of me). But i'd be more proud of me tomrorow coz i'm going ot start my BSF on tuesday and do it one day at a time instead of rushing every Sunday night... Bertie! Nora! Vincy! pleezz ask me how i'm doin and be tough of me oK? me "being busy" is not a good excuse... i'm so disappointed at myself atm, my 1st New yrs res has to do with growing my friendship/relationship with God, taking time out to read the bible, knowing his Plan, trusting it more, being confident of who He made me to be... and i feel a bit smashed up knowing that these two weeks my communication with God has just all fallen apart (yet again). Sorry for being so discouraging if ur reading this!
but... i have good news!!! im on... FACEBOOK! (finally... yes... i know i'm like 6 months behind everyone else). =)
so there. vincy, now you can bombard me with whatever on there. And yes, i agree its better than multiply... well i dont know yout, you'll have to add me first so i can see how functional it is! at least we should get all the band ppl up there (DAN!) hehe... and we can msg each other about rehearsals. =P it seems as if alot of us use it already, which is really good, coz we wont have to convince EVERYONE to join up to yet another obscure thing (YAOT). I betcha everyone has enough to check when they go home... I refer to this as my step-into-house routine:
- unlock doors to get in, turn off alarm
- shout a quick "hi" for politeness sake
- take off shoes if have time
- take off bag and dump in room, turn on laptop
- dash to the loo.
- come back just in time for wireless to be loading up
- check a variety of things:
- gmail (+unimail that ends up in my gmail + business account of gmail)
- hotmail
- msn (who's online, whos changed their pic)
- xanga
- mySpace for business
- facebook
- multiply
- you get the picture... its insane.
- I figured out how to use mozilla toobar bookmarks today- it has a function which will open all of the above accounts at once in different tabs of one browser, log in for me so they're all ready... =P hopefully will make life more efficient
Life is well. I managed to do all my adminny things today. ie. budget for this quarter, do accounts for bubblegumBadges, etc. Clean room, clean gmail, clean hotmail, clean desktop (as in the one on my laptop, not the one on my desk). Life is clean.
Tonight: i have BSF, then will be playing squash with family... yay! exercise!
Oh, yesterday i watched NBA all star event... dude its SO cool! the slam dunk comp and the skills comp... thanks Jimmy for introducing me to it!... now i just gotta wait another year before its on again... =(
d.
PS: oops forgot to post this b4 i left.
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